A raging darkness creeping up on me, Pushing back I can barely fight, grasping upwards pulling at the light. The movement I can feel, is it my imagination or is it just not real. Take away this anger make it a small part me, take away the pain I feel let me not be blinded by what it is.
The deafening sound of silence blasting in at me, unable to express the pain that bleeds forth. I want to feel the grass between my toes the sunshine on my face, and feel the warmth of your laughter in it’s grace.
Dancing in the grove the light’s sparkle shimmering from the sky. The stars in the sky the moon in it’s wonder lends a certain solace to the night air. This is where my happiness in all it’s wonder lies. Does this place exist or is it something that only is a fleeting image in my mind.
I want to dance in the moonlight to feel the innocence that it is. Why can’t that simplicity be mine?

Some might think it funny, others may think it’s sad, but I often wonder if the life I’ve been given is only one I’m worthy to have had.

When lifeless branches shiver in the cold the darker side of night seems to keep its hold. Sometimes it’s good and only for a while can I laugh and feel the warm smile. But most times fractured and fatigued is the only thing I know and a tear will pass my cheeks then I have to say my gods will it ever go.

Some say your life is what you make others think it’s what you take. I believe that there must something or someone paving out my destiny. The road trod is not the one I would have chosen these webs could not have woven by my own two hands.

What can life become when as you go you grow less numb and unable to deal with pain and sorrow you feel? How can I look for tomorrow when I struggle just through the today?

Today I spoke and you did not hear, the words that would only make the thoughts clear. How do you live with what you know, how do you keep reaping the pain you sow. I only knew that once I was lost and you were in the darkness so. The fears I felt, and words you did not say. Unbroken silence bound by years and time, thoughtless shadows help with no reason or rhyme. Can you see what is me can you let me not be free. If I wander far away does it not lead your lips to let go and just say. Hindered by the things you know seeking answers in only things that will not answer. See me, see what I have become, let go the things that cannot be undone.

In my darkest night, I turn and see that what was once nothing is now you and me. Laughter in my day’s and the warmth on dark cold nights, you have made all things wrong somehow almost right. I never dared to dream that smile that you give, the kindness and your loving me make’s life so worth to live. If the gods had made you no better they could do, for my love you are perfect just being you.

When the road gets rough and we find we stumble on our way, there is no one more with whom I would rather get that way. When your feeling down and it just isn’t your day look to me my love and for a while I will lead the way.

For my husband, who is and will forever be my inspiration.

Today I heard a whisper, it spoke of anger and mistrust, today I heard a whisper by a voice that sounded of hate and lust. The wind’s will blow and hold tale’s of time’s gone by, of memories of yesterday of countless fears. Walking in the shadows, through the void of time, wandering a painful walk painted by color’s dark.

Can you hear the whisper the voice it calls to you it calls the mighty, and giant’s they will fall too. Through mountains and valleys and hills of snow and rain, over the tree top’s the power it might gain. Holding on so tightly, it could take a might blow, and where it may be ending only ever you will know.

Today I heard a whisper and it angered me to say, that it would never end it would continue on its way. Today I heard a whisper, and looked on in a daze, for in the whisper I could here the Angels as they cried. Running I took flight, the voice I could not hear, for if I listened long enough I might drown in the fear.

Many will never know what shape it took to me for even if you lingered you could never see. A lonely wandering child I might always be for this voice will forever haunt me.

The past it haunts me like a dangerous dream, following me until I rip at the seams. Blood drips and I see that’s it mine, slowly and more slowly I die inside. Like a shadow you whisper it in my ear but like a demon you pretend it’s not real. I only know to what I feel, not understanding when your love went dead. I only meant to make you see that what was before you was only me
She cannot be what she is not; she cannot see her own faults. These daggers you throw and yet I persist in catching them with my heart. My life you took and now you see what you’ve done and only face the shadows of what cannot be undone. Wandering and wandering down the path I go, I will journey far away, for far from you is the only safe place to go.

A lonely tear drop shed for words she cannot say. A whisper that missed it’s mark floating into the past. Unheard the words that can’t be said the thought’s that won’t be shed.

Tree’s make shadows on the roads she walks, a road less trod will be her way, and though they may not see she will be just she. Lonely though it may be she will find her way for if not to be heard it was said on that day.

Loneliness, persistent pain, unhappiness felt in vain. Tormenting pain, running to nothing and yet something at all! Wandering into darkness keeping it within, never knowing what it is. Answers hide in the corners and then run so far away. How can I can ask the questions when I don’t know what they are?

Deep in the soul a hardening heart building up the concrete walls. Help me find myself in this darkness. Help understand the pain I never wanted but always had. Where can I go what can I do when I can’t find you.

Buried in myself uneasiness I can’t endure. Falling, always falling, give me your hand helps my climb up without your hand without you I can’t get there.

Today I saw sunshine bit’s and pieces scattered around the room. Little shards of light each perfected in the perfection that was itself. Wrap your warmth around me and hold me in the light. Awaken to me to the Perfection that you are.
Everything around me is a tapestry of color, beautiful in its entirety. To see the gift around is to see peace. To weave the web of creation that surrounds all life stillness in the morning light. Harmony like no one has ever known. Create with your mind tender love and you will grow the beauty that is life.