I’m an open book, I share my life and stories about my life in the hopes that it will help others who might be dealing with some of the things I’ve dealt with. Those who are my friends, those who know me, know this about me and I appreciate that you’re in my life.

From time to time you may see posts from me that seem rather personal, that is not done without forethought. I spent a great many years teaching myself, learning about myself and learning to love myself. Learning how to be a healthy adult did not come easy for me since I had to learn how to be one on my own.

So these posts, as well as the fact that I have shared my entire autobiography on my blog, have not been done without much forethought. They were done because in looking back over the past 40 years of my life I realized that if my experience could help others and somehow lessen the pain of what I felt then sharing that information was important and because of that I choose to share it with the world.

I’m not angry, not any more. I’m just sad that we will never have the relationship I always wanted. It hurts knowing that the not having you around actually is better for my mental and emotional health. I wanted to have a relationship with you, I wanted things to be good. I wanted for you care about me the way you claim too. It saddens me that after all these years I’ve come to realize that will never happen.

I spent a long time trying to figure out how to behave in a manner that would allow you to love me. But now I know that’s not my job. I can’t wait any more. I have to live my life for me. I am who I am, and I’m okay with that. Maybe someday you’ll see that, but somehow I doubt it. I don’t believe it’s in you to appreciate others for whom they are I think you only see them for what they can bring to you or do for you.

So no I’m not angry with you. I just need to do what’s good for me because in the end I am who I have to live with and if I spend my life chasing after failed relationships I know I’ll never be happy or healthy.  You will always have a place in my heart, but I can’t afford to keep you in my life for my own sanity.

Just curious, and not looking for my own debate, but is anyone else watching the Democratic debate tonight?

The Sombrero Galaxy in Infrared
This floating ring is the size of a galaxy. In fact, it is a galaxy — or at least part of one: the photogenic Sombrero Galaxy, one of the largest galaxies in the nearby Virgo Cluster of Galaxies. The dark band of dust that obscures the mid-section of the Sombrero Galaxy in optical light actually glows brightly in infrared light.

This image, digitally sharpened, shows the infrared glow, recently recorded by the orbiting Spitzer Space Telescope, superposed in false-color on an existing image taken by NASA’s Hubble Space Telescope in optical light. The Sombrero Galaxy, also known as M104, spans about 50,000 light years across and lies 28 million light years away. M104 can be seen with a small telescope in the direction of the constellation Virgo.

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Gotta love each those communist censors.

Never saw this coming….cough cough lol

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